I think this trip might be the deciding factor if I should stay another year and build my 'professional' portfolio etc.
I don't know its just hard its all hard and it kinda hurts inside. I don't want to leave, I am so attached here to this school, the atmosphere, the western maine mountains, the charm, all the great awesome people. But I have to move on, I have to go be me, one day I can return if I want to until then I need to reach my goal, and not hesitate or hinder myself from it in the process. And guess what its the impossible formula for possibility.
Yes, so as many highs and lows I have had over the past two days, I am tired. This post isn't making much sense, because well I don't make much sense lately. Or maybe it's right there in front of me, and I haven't stepped back far enough to see it. sleep, now.
(And now I will revert to corny high school behavior, and show my emotional attachment to a song that has helped me through today and not letting my eyes join the rain outside...)
Fix You by: Coldplay (never thought I would quote this in a million years on here....)
When you try your best but you don't succeed, When you get what you want but not what you need, When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face, When you lose something you cannot replace, When you love someone but it goes to waste
COULD IT BE WORSE?
Lights will guide you home, And ignite your bones, And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below, When you're too in love to let it go, But if you never try you'll never know, Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home, And ignite your bones, And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face, When you lose something you cannot replace, Tears stream down your face
And I... Tears stream down your face, I promise you I will learn from my mistakes, Tears stream down your face, And I...
Lights will guide you home, And ignite your bones, And I will try to fix me.
