And if I was to write about all of them here I would be here for a few hours... that I don't have cause I've been playing with sound all day and not homework, but thats okay I can manage.
As if I have been hit over the head and coming out of some sort of amnesia, I feel as if I have opened a new part of my brain. Where I can learn things, absorb them incredibly quickly and figure things out without the previous effort I had to make to figure them out. For some reason the click has happened or will continue to occur. It's odd yet wonderful. I still feel like I know nothing though... And i guess thats the best part, learning is life long... Somedays I wish i had a button or a switch called Back Up or better yet! Pan Out so I can realize and see where I have come and where I am going. I never realize what I've done until it smacks me in the face... If I got a paper out from last year at this time I would probably put it down half way through reading it in amazement. for two reasons: one- its not the best and two- geeze um I guess I have come along way.
It's been FIVE WEEKS since the concert and I still feel as if I am back 4 or 3 weeks ago... Recovering in the weirdest way. I have new projects which are INCREDIBLY EXCITING, but to get into a different motion after 8 months of the same composers is a gear shift, its happening.... just slowly. I see myself getting totally engaged really soon, but still its odd.
Where does time go... Where does the Weekend go... goodness...
I am taking a chance this Spring, and throwing myself ahead into the future (what a stupid sentence...). I was talking about this last night with friends... I still like it here in Farmington too much, I want to begin to lose it, and thought I would a little after everything this semester but I still like it... too much. No, this is not a bad thing...
So my impulse to this feeling is to throw myself ahead so over my next break I will go to New York and discover the city and the grad schools I am looking at. I will go to New York City twice this Spring/Early summer, and I look forward to it with incredible anticipation. I have a year and a half left here in Farmington, but I want to start early, make sure I want to go to NY or Boston make that choice without restrictions. I can't imagine living there, I think it would go incredibly quick... A lot of work in a very short period of time. So yeah, until the time comes I don't know what it will be like, nor do I want to spend the time thinking about it a lot, there's too much to do before I get there!!!
Compositionally, things are getting really exciting. I am finishing four2minutes...... I have one more piece I have a quasi-sketch for it in my head. I might do a 6 track EP with the four2minutes and with a few other compositions on it and release it... Then of course.. My big AIR piece (meaning I talk about it more than I compose it, it means one of two things, I am too busy to do it or I just don't make the time.) The Italian Catalogs I think are going to take forever, but they are next... Already close to a year now waiting.. Oh boy... HA!
Another concern of mine is actually playing my pieces live. I am thinking of arrangements, wrapping my head around the thought. I am sure with some practice everything will come together quickly, but there are a bunch of shows coming up which I would like to play and so this issue is rather important. Another element I would like to throw into my possible live act is a 'piece on the spot' create it there. I think this would be wonderful, and could open up new works. What a challenging prospect but hell, why not. We are getting all the new Toys in the lab this week, and of course I get to play with them all at a great length!! I am glad this week isn't that intense, cause I will be playing ALOT!!!!!
I am done here for now. Night.
