the bottom of the sea
your eyes they turn me
why should i stay here?
why should i stay?
I'd be crazy not to follow
follow where you lead
your eyes they turn me
sunk without a trace
the bottom of the deep
your eyes they turn me
turn me into fantasies
i follow to the edge of the earth
and fall off
everybody leaves
if they get the chance
and this is my chance ....
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I couldn't have said it better, but Thom Yorke said it for me (the fan side). I've gone through a lot in the past couple of weeks. A lot which I don't want to talk about, a lot which I do - some I want to scream out loud about. As always i am writing this to procrastinate, at least i am a somewhat creative procrastinator.
So, yeah. Lets see I met Rhys Chatham last Monday in Boston at his Guitar Trio gig. We had something like an almost two hour interview, and were still talking before and after the show. The show itself was incredible - I was pretty sure I was going to lose my hearing after listening to a guitar trio with six guitars and lasting around 20-25 mins long - TWICE. I felt like I was at the epoch Max's Kansas City show 30 years later and in Boston. It was killer, this is what I am researching - it is alive I met the composer I saw him play it. This is what musicology should be about (well it is...) but to have an experience like that is incredible. It's real and alive.
I've been in a funk lately over the loss of my grandmother and recovering from the downfall of last week. Recovering with only the things I hold dearest - family, snowboarding, and radiohead. It gets me through the days. Since we are working on analyzing Hail to the Theif (the musicologist side) in the muh150 class I am TAing in, I can't stop listening. Right now its live at Bonnaroo - great concert. I hope the new album comes out this summer it would be rather appropriate... I hope they come over to the US. I hope I meet them. That's a lot to hope for, but hell why not.
I've been asked to possibly collaborate/research on a literary theory/musical analysis of Hail to the Thief by my professor. I might get to co-author. This would be an article, written to be published.....
Ecstatic, I don't quite think that counts as my reaction. more or less well living up to somehow my life's dreams, yes I think that counts. There is so much going on right now. If i think about it It keeps me up. Its amazing. Hell, I am trying to work out a trip to go down to NYC to research over my Feb break in a week or so... Incredible. I can use only so many words to describe just exactly the situation I am in. I could go nuts and swear a lot and be like "ohhhhhmygodholyfuckkiinnnnnshiteiamdoingthiscrazzyassresearchthisismylifeisthisadream???????"
But I won't Ill just quote my initial reaction aforementioned and leave it there. HAHHAHHA!
To watch life move this way. Sublime. How can I worry, how can I just take two inklings of doing stupid things or flipping out or anything. I can't I love it.
I will move on from this amazing experience and create even more incrediblness.
I think the only thing I really worry about is when the bright light burns out. I don't think it does if you know how to fuel it correctly, and that I am learning at the moment.
I think I have quite possibly entered the most exciting time in my life.
And it will only get better...
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we fishies
hit the bottom of
hit the bottom to escape
escape
escape
-arpeggi.rh
